Truth be told, I have not taken all too many personal pictures lately. Yes, a few with my phone, but not too many with the big camera. I was waiting. Waiting for inspiration, a calling, a purpose, an idea, a thought, for the drive. Months ago, I planned for many spring sessions, as Spring is my most favorite time to shoot, with the colors… the light. But, there has been a shadow over my heart and the colors of spring turned dull, long before the end of this season.

I had not intended for this post to be anything but light, but I have never been a good liar. Please don’t get me wrong, I so feel the joy, I count my blessings, and I see such great beauty in my world, but in a crisp, and ever so real sort of way these days. Two New Years ago I made a resolution to feel a little more, love a little deeper, live with greater intent, greater purpose, use kinder words, to not speak ill of others and to share a little more. I can say I have kept up with this resolution but I have not felt the depths of this until recently. I will continue all of this, but with a heavier heart, a bit more wisdom, and the memory of my beautiful assistant… each time I pick up my camera, each time I hug my children, each time I reach out to another, each time I say goodbye.

So, yes, truth be told I have not touched my camera much, but, as I helped my oldest get ready for her choir performance, in her maybe-too-bright yellow dress, overpriced jelly glitter shoes, and a daisy floral headband, I saw my Spring. I saw the color, the joy, the warmth and the light. She glows, and actually, she beams. She sings from her heart. She is beauty and she is love. I smiled at her unlike I have before during that performance, for these moments pass, there is no going back. Only the now. So I will hold onto those I love…

My favorite song of the night…

“Home”